wow. i am nothing short of a mess. i miss you, then i realized that isn’t anything new. but i already miss you in a different way. i regret doing this; i feel terrible. i will never forget listening to you gasp and sob into the receiver. are we doing the right thing? i still can’t believe i evoked that kind of emotion out of you. you, michael, the rock. the boy who sheds no tears. maybe this isn’t the right thing for you. maybe we both just need some time to think. i kept matt up until 4 o’clock in the morning and ALL I TALKED ABOUT were happy memories involving you. why did i throw that all away??? i am the stupidest girl in the world, i think!
and my mommy sent me that picture of you playing the flugelhorn. she doesn’t even know. you’re still coming up for the game next weekend. please, please, PLEASE don’t be awkward. you know i am going to give you the biggest hug of your life.
for the sake of your sanity, i want you to know that there is no one else. and i hope you have no one else yet, either, because i want to stay back into your life. i miss you, sweetheart. we have let the world come between us.
….reconsider?
