i had such a lighthearted conversation on the phone with michael tonight. it felt so nice; he’s always been easy to talk to. sometimes i just need to vent about things. mike asked if i am doing better and i launched into this speel about how i’m unhappy with my grades but pretty happy about everything else. he knew i knew that wasn’t what he meant. mike was talking about us, of course.
how do i feel about it? it’s hard to describe. i am not sad sad sad, which is how i grew accustomed to feeling during my last breakup (but that is a completely different story). i feel a lot less heartbroken knowing that i can still talk to mike if need be. in fact, i see things that remind me of mike, and i smile. which i guess is maybe how things should be? but i want to continue making happy memories with mike. i want to let more things make me smile.
mike also asked if i had any new holes or drawings on my body. the answer is no. (i can’t bring myself to change anything just yet.) should i take my septum ring out? will that earn me brownie points? i guess i’m not THAT attached to it. i could live without it. i think if mike keeps pushing me to take it out, i will cave and just remove it. it’s one thing i’m willing to not be stubborn about.
on the other hand, i took my hood barbell out today to clean it and was TERRIFIED when i almost couldn’t get it back in. i think it is quickly becoming my favorite piercing (yes, even over my industrial, which i simply adore). i look … naked and weird without it. it’s like when i take my navel barbell out; i always forget that i have a very neat star-shaped scar inside my bellybutton.
amy told me not to give my heart or my kisses to any boys at msu just yet.
