…and the day they stopped.
i told mike about last thursday and i could tell he was disappointed in me. my heart broke all over again. so what did i do? i went out on friday and saturday night. friday i ventured with ashley and her friend mary to see sea defeats sparrow (a local band), and the lead singer invited us back to his apartment for a kegger. i did not buy a cup and i did not drink. but the live bands playing at the party were good, and ashley and mary are very fun.
saturday, melissa and katherine invited me to go to a house party with them. so i went. i met a ton of new people (miraculously, these people were mainly girls). melissa and kat bought a CUP for me (damn them!) but i hate beer so i only drank enough to keep me involved in the ongoing game of flipcup. i graciously bowed out when we played survivor flipcup. katherine got a little trashed so we left the party pretty early. melissa, kat, sara, and i were making our way back to case hall just fine when we stopped at bell’s pizza to use the bathroom. katherine was sick four times. she said she was okay so we started walking again. we made it to the parking lot, where she puked up the water she had just drank. kat kept saying, “matt [her boyfriend] said to call if i am in trouble!” so we called her boyfriend and he came to pick her up and he was pissed. i was pissed that he was pissed. dude, just take care of your fucking girlfriend. you can be mad at her once she’s sober, but just be there for her when she needs you the most. i know they’ve only been dating for like two months, but he could’ve taken it as an opportunity to STRENGTHEN their relationship instead of putting up a huge fuss. damn.
then last night kat was crying because matt wants to break up. i wanted to tell her, “look, he was an ASSHOLE the other night and you can do so much better,” but of course i didn’t say anything. nathaniel says i am not allowed to open my mouth because i am tainted right now.
i made a huge batch of christmas cards. i told jeff they are “christmas cards for people who don’t really care about me”. i think i was just in a bad mood, because i know some of them do care. or at least i think they do. the lucky recipients are matt, nathaniel, sam, jessie, amanda, caitlin, sara, josh, katelyn, jessica, eric, derek, and drew. i will probably end up making cards for people back home as well, but they are second priority right now because i am leaving for home in less than a week.
matt and nathaniel have declared my goal for the week: no nights spent sleeping in my own bed. so i’ve stayed in case and watched multiple movies with them every night since sunday. the girl next door made me go off on a huge rant, screaming, “love is bullshit! this movie is bullshit!” at the top of my lungs at three o’clock in the morning. derek came out of his room and said, “wow, you must be a cold-hearted bitch.” and i laughed. derek always makes me laugh.
sunday night i was watching dilbert episodes with eric. when i finally decided to go to bed, i walked across the bathroom to tell derek goodnight. he let me read the paper he was working on for mc 111. ironically, a paper about how he hates writing papers. then he hugged me and planted a kiss smack on my lips, no tongue involved. and it scared me beyond belief, because that is the kind of kiss that screams commitment. the kind of kiss that means more than all the making out in the world. the kind of kiss that means jack shit nothing because i don’t want it to mean anything at all.
monday night, sam, mason, and melissa joined matt, nathaniel, and me for two movies (spiderman 2 wasn’t any better the second time around). then we played the question game. mason mentally pinned sam to a wall and somehow got sam to admit out loud that he has a crush on me. shit. and to top it all off – josh (droog) is apparently attracted to me as well. i am not interested in any of these boys, nor am i going to try and convince myself that i am. i’m not going to go on some rampant heartbreaking spree like i did last time (my thoughts went something like, “if i can’t have who i want, then i’m going to make as many people as possible feel as shitty as i do.”).
the formal dress that i purchased arrived last week. it is absolutely gorgeous. orange. the color i wanted to wear to prom, but couldn’t find a dress in my price range. i adore getting dressed up, and now i get to get all spiffed up twice: once for huddle and again for the honors ball. the two events are only a week apart, but i am thrilled.
matt bought me my christmas present yesterday. we went to splash of color to purchase it. i will take a picture soon. and my mom bought a trumpet for me. i am now the proud owner of a bach omega (which is one step below the stradivarius). i bought an ipod on eBay yesterday. i really did not have money to do that with. then again, i am not the most logical person in the world.
this has been kristen being all over the place.
