oh my! so i’m back on campus. moved back on sunday, in fact. helped nathaniel bring in his piles and piles of stuff, then plopped down on the middle of all the mess on matt & nathaniel’s dorm room floor. derek walked by and said, “kristen, i see you’ve moved in for real!” haha. i [...]
January 2005
i’m kristen and i have my own agenda though even i may not know what it is because mostly i just sit around listening to sad songs and feeling like i should cry but remaining unable to muster up any tears for me for you or for anyone else and i just sat here listening [...]
i make my own heartbreak. it’s like i am trapped in a glass box and everyone else is happy, except me, because i can list eighty-eight things to beat myself up over. …this is getting ri-goddamn-diculous.
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yesterday i worked from 5:00-11:30am. my shift went by fairly quickly. i never mentioned in here that jim quit mcdonald’s (last friday, to be exact). i’m so heartbroken. he didn’t even say goodbye. *pouts* i don’t truthfully know if i will ever be going back to work at the hartland mcdonald’s after my shift this [...]
last night was very, very fun. nathaniel’s entry summed it up quite eloquently, i think. i was supposed to work 7:30am-3:30pm, but i wasn’t feeling well, so i somehow convinced holly to let me leave around 11am. actually, there was really no convincing involved. it went more along these lines: KRISTEN: holly, i am really [...]
if you look back through these entries (redpop.diaryland.com), i do not usually write in here when i am happy. there are no entries between january and june of last year. i write in here when i am trying to heal without prying eyes observing my every move. i don’t like looking back at all of [...]
