“would you please forgive me? for while i cannot love myself, i’ll use something else.”
tomorrow i’m leaving to go far, far away (mérida, mexico). lately i’ve been having these pangs of loneliness. i surround myself with all of these wonderful new people and hope that magically one day i will be happy. this plan never works; nothing magic ever happens. perhaps someday. i have so much going for me and i still feel so empty.
strange how sean can call me seven times last saturday begging for me, yet when we see each other in person, there isn’t even eye contact made.
sam told me that you can’t drink with intentions, and that i drink “TO GET REALLY WASTED REALLY FAST”. but everyone loves me when i’m pretty and grinning and crashing.
campus is really lonely right now because everyone has cleared out for the week. i am really lonely right now because i’m not sure what to do with myself. i think i am actually a little homesick, but there is nothing left for me in linden.
“how am i supposed to remember you when you won’t let me forget?”
