are you someone’s prayer?
i like going to the bathroom in the dark. i enjoy summer and christmas. i like those days when you wake up on your own, without an alarm. i don’t open up to people easily. i usually get what i want. only two people can call me “krissy” and get away with it (one of them is my mom). i’ve been told i’m a strong person, but i don’t feel very strong at all. the feather part of my second tattoo symbolizes strength. i would shave my head if i didn’t have a huge flat spot and if i wasn’t afraid of what that spot would look like hairless. i like talking. no summer is complete without a phone call that keeps you up way past your bedtime (this summer has had no such phone call yet). i wasted a really good first kiss moment on someone. i am easily disappointed. i like driving in the heat with my windows down and my radio up. i am really terrified of having to grow up and the thought of being stuck in an office nine to five monday through friday. i have a high pain tolerance. i have big hands for a girl. i used to bleach my lower back hair until i realized its presence didn’t really bother me. i hate my eyebrows; they’re the only thing i would change about my physical appearance. if i could only wear one piece of jewelry from now until the end of time it would be my star toe ring. i break a lot of jewelry when i get drunk. i want to get a hummingbird necklace (to indicate that i am searching for something). i cry over any movie that involves a dad making some sort of sacrifice for his family. i think my dad is my hero. i am upset that my grandmother spoke fluent italian and no one ever told me until after she died. february is the crappiest month ever, in my opinion. i am pretty irrational. i work my ass off. i love the way my fish&mirror tattoo looks when i am completely naked. i’m one of those people who will never let you go. i have people in my cell phone contacts list who i will probably never call. i am stubborn as hell. i want to get married. i hope to find someone i will fall so in love with that i will change my mind about not wanting kids. i have horrible night vision. sometimes i get really scared that everything i do will amount to nothing. i let things consume me. my parents are really cool. sometimes my mom will make a facial expression that i see myself in even though i don’t really look like her at all. i hate my teeth. i like boys with body hair. my motto is i’ll try anything once (twice if i like it). don’t think, just live. this philosophy sometimes gets me in trouble. i’m a good friend if you treat me with the same respect. i have a weakness for always trying to find the good in people (even when they don’t deserve it). i want to eventually live and work in new york, but i think i will miss driving. i like to feel in control. i don’t like spending money. i love video games, especially the classics. i think i seriously might have a mild form of ADD. i have trouble focusing on what people are saying because i become too busy formulating my response and my train of thought gets jumbled. i want to go to jamaica for my honeymoon. i don’t think i will ever stop reading and enjoying francesca lia block’s work. i like receiving flowers, especially if it is for no real reason at all. i have never smoked marijuana. i used to despise michigan state university’s campus. everyone deserves a second chance. i think liars are worse than cheaters. i am a hypocrite. my personality and whatever mood i am in becomes amplified when i’m drunk. i like drinking my problems away. i am not ready to face the “real world” yet. i cannot cook. my most irrational fear is drains on the bottom of pools. i am also afraid of rejection, failure, and loneliness. on st. patrick’s day, i kissed a boy i had genuinely taking a liking to and he severed all contact with me after that. sometimes i want to do the holding. i could kick your ass at webdesign. if i’m drunk i’ll have no choice but to tell you the truth. i enjoy watching movies but have trouble finding ones i actually like. jimmy eat world’s clarity has been in thecd player of my alarm clock since september. have you ever seen me mad? i have 1/2″ holes in my ears even though i originally said i was only stretching to 10g. if i were someone else, i would not be friends with me. i couldn’t live without my iPod. i can drive a stick …. sort of. i’ve manuevered around bigger things. i have “kristen” moments a lot. i’ve been in love with two very different boys who taught me very different things about life. i have back problems because my tailbone isn’t in the right place. i know who i’m going to call the day i turn twenty-four. when i decide i want to do something, i do it. i wish everything had a definite answer. i love going to concerts where the drum mics are turned up so loud the bass drum threatens to take over your pulse. i am pretty intense. hot rod circuit is love. i usually have a lot of options as far as boys go. i have drummed while hwasted. i am addicted to eBay even though i hardly ever buy anything. i am more competitive than you’ll ever know. i always thought i wanted to be an anesthesiologist, but apparently i thought wrong. when i was five, i wanted to grow up to be an archaeologist. is falling for someone you know you shouldn’t exhilaratingly terrible or terribly exhilarating? i am a dreamer. keep me grounded.
and i’ll become what you became to me.
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i am so tired and bored i read all of that. kristen, i wish i could have known you, like actually been friends with you and went to high school with you.
Now that was fun to read. I like freewriting, but normally i get stuck after a paragraph or so.
And I know you will have children.
And February is not a horrible month (my birthday, but late feb)
long night at work. peace out.
despite some of that, you still know who you are.
and that’s the most important thing, remember that.