i hate petty gossip and how i have allowed it to hurt me.
i never told anyone but on june fourth i pretty much had a nervous breakdown. i just went out to the backseat of my silver saturn, laid down, and cried. huge wracking sobs that made my chest ache. i called matt and he came out to join me like the good friend he is, and he saw me cry for the second time in the history of our friendship. i never cry. i am so strong i let on that nothing ever hurts me. but it does. i’ve let myself down for the last time.
