home is quiet, in more ways than one: my house is quiet and the night outside is near silent (only full moons and frogs). i have no idea what i am doing (or even what i want to do). i believe it was karen who once said that no summer is complete without a phone call that keeps you up past your bedtime; well, my winter break is now complete because i had a face-to-face conversation that kept me up past my bedtime. yet talking with this person made me both happy and sad. i know this cannot progress. my life is too different, too full, too far. i don’t know what to think. i do not know what any of this means. i don’t know what to do with boys. they frustrate me to no end. i don’t know which ones i want or which ones want me. i will say once again that i’ve spent so long being in relationships that i have forgotten how to begin them.
you kept your grip on me longer than was necessary. you finally let me in again but it is too late for us.
circles, always in circles. it’s high time i find someone new.
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if there is anything i’ve learned, its dont worry about it. Amazing people come to you when you least expect it. truly, least expect it.
plus, that song is fucking sweet.